Steppin’ Out

It’s been easy to write about our day, the activities that we do and the things that go on. I can write about the doctor visits and the days at home – It’s easy. I just type up a quick re-cap of the day, have Nathan read over it, copy, paste and it’s done. What’s not easy is to write about the feelings that go along with my days. Some days I can, and have in a few posts. There are many days I will just sit with my laptop and type about what I’m feeling and the frustrations that I have, but those don’t get shared…they’re even “hidden” from Nathan. Who am I kidding, he’s a computer guy; which is awesome, because computers and I don’t always get along.

Yesterday morning when Josiah woke up he grabbed my phone off the nightstand and turned on the music. The song that happened to play was Group 1 Crew’s Steppin’ Out, which I hadn’t ever really stopped and listened to. Since it was the first thing I heard that morning, and had a great catchy tune, it stayed in my head most of the morning. Josiah had an appointment in Columbia, so on the way I decided to listen. It was stuck on “repeat,” so I just listened and I immediately thought of this blog that we’ve started. As I listened to this song, the words really began to sink in.

I feel called to something more; I have more to give; It’s not too late; I believe there’s an untold story that you’re telling through me. I’m steppin out to take a chance.

So here we go. This is me. Real. Honest. And ready to take that next step.

Steppin’ Out by Group 1 Crew lyrics:

I feel called to something more,
Beyond what I have known.
I keep shutting out that voice
That cries deep within my soul.
I have more to give, but I have been afraid.
And then I hear You say, “It’s still not too late…”

I’m stepping out to take a chance.
And if I fly or if I fall it’s in Your hands.
You’re the maker of my dreams,
And You’ll make a way with me.
So I’m stepping out, I’m stepping out…
To take a chance (Woah oh oh oh oooh)
To take a chance (Woah oh oh oh oooh)

I’m alive, I want to live…
And I am not content to keep holding
Back all that I am, the way that I have been.
I am Yours to use.
And when I am afraid, You come close to say, “1 step it all it takes… “.

I’m stepping out to take a chance.
And if I fly or if I fall it’s in Your hands.
You’re the maker of my dreams (maker of my dreams)
, and You’ll make a way with me.
So I’m stepping out, I’m stepping out…

I believe in the grace You’ve shown me.
I believe in the words You say.
I believe there’s an untold story,
That You’re telling through me.
I believe in the grace You’ve shown me.
I believe in the words You say.
I believe there’s an untold story,
That You’re telling through me.

I’m stepping out to take a chance.
And if I fly or if I fall it’s in Your hands.
You’re the maker of my dreams,
And You’ll make a way with me.
So I’m stepping out, I’m stepping out…
To take a chance (Woah oh oh oh oooh)
To take a chance (Woah oh oh oh oooh)

I’m stepping out, I’m stepping out… Lord.
I’m stepping out, I’m stepping out…